Sorry that it's been so long. I was too busy being sick.
But something happened this weekend and I've turned a mental corner. I am no longer a warrior who is fighting to kill cancer until it catches up with me and kills me. I am now someone who is going to beat cancer completely. It took 8 months for my attitude to get here, but those fuckers who diagnosed me and gave me a 2nd opinion scared the crap out of me. I was very depressed and unable (unwilling?) to do my own research and take my recovery into my own hands. Instead I have just been doing whatever the doctors tell me.
I did do the hyperbaric oxygen treatments (initially to get Mark off my back) although my oncologist told me it was a waste of my money. Eventually I did come to believe that hyperbarics have been an crucial part of my recovery up to now.
I now know that I need to concentrate not on killing cancer, but on building up my immune system so that my body can kill cancer or keep cancer at bay the way it was supposed to. Why did my immune system stop working??? Maybe because I did a *lot* of infertility treatments where they suppressed my immune system and NK's (natural killer cells). Stress? Way too much sugar? Apparently, eating sugar when you have cancer is like throwing gasoline on a fire.
I am implementing some inexpensive and natural treatments that have helped a lot of people. I'm going to remain on the Tarceva because it isn't toxic. It is a "biological" that targets a piece of the cancer's DNA and causes the cancer cells to fall apart. Some of these treatments I have started and I already feel a huge difference.
Just the mental shift has made such a difference. Yesterday (Mother's Day) Mark looked at me and said, "Oh my god, the old you is back!" I believe that the oncologist is going to have a big surprise when she sees the results of my body scans at the end of May.
I want to say a special thank you to Michael Brooks. You know why.
7 comments:
GO Elena GO!!!! Whatever the reason I am so glad you have found a way to change your attitude! Always thinking of you!
Excellent, Elena! You are amazing! I never noticed that the old Elena was gone? I was just commenting on my blog that I think you have continued to live life with full zest (now, I don't know much about research and treatment, but you didn't seem "depressed" to me). Lots of love!
you keep on kicking it's butt. Your looking good!
Wonderful post. I am looking forward to having you here with us soon. We love you so much! and thanks, Mike, for whatever your role...
Elena,
Having never faced cancer on a personal (ie-me) expereince, I can't imagine the process you had to go through to get where you are, emotionally but I'm glad you arrived at this place. I think of you often and wish you nothing but the best. Keep kicking ass.
Good for you! You compliment the Tarceva in any way that makes you feel better. Accupuncture helped me to relax and focus. I tried supplements of shitake and miyake mushrooms for a while too to boost my immune system and only stopped when my digestive system rebelled.
So, whatever helps you focus on just being alive rather than trying to survive or prepare for the worst,go for it. "Now" is all yours to do with as you please.
It's so good to hear you strong and determined.
Thank god, I was so worried at the long silence! You sound amazing, lady. And everything you write makes eminent sense. ((hugs)) and a belated happy Mothers' Day!
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