Sorry that it's been so long. I was too busy being sick.
But something happened this weekend and I've turned a mental corner. I am no longer a warrior who is fighting to kill cancer until it catches up with me and kills me. I am now someone who is going to beat cancer completely. It took 8 months for my attitude to get here, but those fuckers who diagnosed me and gave me a 2nd opinion scared the crap out of me. I was very depressed and unable (unwilling?) to do my own research and take my recovery into my own hands. Instead I have just been doing whatever the doctors tell me.
I did do the hyperbaric oxygen treatments (initially to get Mark off my back) although my oncologist told me it was a waste of my money. Eventually I did come to believe that hyperbarics have been an crucial part of my recovery up to now.
I now know that I need to concentrate not on killing cancer, but on building up my immune system so that my body can kill cancer or keep cancer at bay the way it was supposed to. Why did my immune system stop working??? Maybe because I did a *lot* of infertility treatments where they suppressed my immune system and NK's (natural killer cells). Stress? Way too much sugar? Apparently, eating sugar when you have cancer is like throwing gasoline on a fire.
I am implementing some inexpensive and natural treatments that have helped a lot of people. I'm going to remain on the Tarceva because it isn't toxic. It is a "biological" that targets a piece of the cancer's DNA and causes the cancer cells to fall apart. Some of these treatments I have started and I already feel a huge difference.
Just the mental shift has made such a difference. Yesterday (Mother's Day) Mark looked at me and said, "Oh my god, the old you is back!" I believe that the oncologist is going to have a big surprise when she sees the results of my body scans at the end of May.
I want to say a special thank you to Michael Brooks. You know why.
